1. Hypnotryst - Part 1


    Date: 11/13/2015, Categories: Bisexual, Author: blin18, Rating: 11, Source: LushStories

    thought that way anymore. TW: Sometimes it’s hard to see clearly when we stand too close. What about socially? Can you still relate to other people? Communicate? Empathize? SR: Ummm? Sometimes I don’t feel much like socializing. I guess I need to be in the right mood to go out and have fun. TW: Would you say the anxiety impacts your ability to experience enjoyment? (EDIT: There is a protracted pause in the recording at this point. TW) TW: Susan? SR: I’m sorry? What was the question? TW: Do you think your anxiety impacts your ability to experience enjoyment? SR: I don’t think so. I mean, I like going out with girlfriends and having a few drinks and a few laughs. It’s fun. TW: But not when you’re anxious? SR: I don’t know about that. Not feeling like going out isn’t the same as not enjoying yourself. I think I probably would enjoy myself if I socialized when I was symptomatic, but I choose not to. (EDIT: There is another short pause in the recording at this point while I allow Susan time to reflect. TW) TW: Is that all? SR: Umm? Yes, I think so. Why? TW: You paused for a while earlier when I asked whether you could experience enjoyment. What were you thinking about? SR: Oh, it was nothing. (laughs) I just misunderstood the question. TW: What did you think I meant? SR: Oh … it’s … um … embarrassing. TW: Promise I won’t laugh. SR: You’d better not! (laughs) Not at your charge-out rate! (EDIT: Another short pause while Susan reflects. TW) SR: I thought you meant sexually. TW: ...
    That the anxiety affects your ability to enjoy sex? SR: Mmm. Silly, right? Must have it on the mind. TW: Does it affect your ability to enjoy sex? SR: No … maybe? No, definitely no. Sex isn’t any different when I feel anxious. TW: Why the ‘maybe’? Is it usually good or usually not so good? SR: Umm? That’s a difficult question. You know how they say sex is like pizza? TW: Even when it’s bad, it’s still pretty good? SR: Right. So I’m not saying I don’t like sex, because I do like it. It feels great. TW: But not as great as it could? Or as great as you think it should? SR: Mmm. TW: So you’re heterosexual? SR: Uh huh. TW: And sexually active? SR: Well, not right at this minute! (laughs) But yeah, my husband and I have sex once or twice a week. TW: But you don’t always experience a climax? SR: No. TW: What percentage of the time would you say you orgasmed? SR: Um … about zero. TW: “About” zero? SR: Well … exactly zero. TW: What about masturbation? SR: What about it? TW: Do you often achieve orgasm through masturbation? SR: I don’t really masturbate. I mean, I know people say that and it’s supposed to be a lie, but I don’t. I just … I guess I just can’t find the right motivation. TW: What do you mean by that? SR: Well, you know how you’re supposed to think of something sexy or watch porn or something? There’s nothing that really interests me enough to do it. I mean, I’ve tried, but no … outcome, if you take my meaning. TW: So have you ever experienced an orgasm? SR: I don’t …? I don’t ...
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