1. What Were the Chances?


    Date: 3/4/2016, Categories: Love Stories, Author: Jayne33, Rating: 21, Source: LushStories

    it. Going into work got harder and harder, as rumours spread of female staff and their attraction to Luke. Who could blame them? He was sweet and charming, flirty and sexy, and I didn’t see how any woman could not fall for his charms. I was insanely jealous and angry at myself for feeling that way. It affected the way I was when I was around him and that only made me angrier. The final blows came when he one day opened up to me and professed his love for one of the women that had been working as a flyer girl. She was wild and adventurous. She’d been over here on a short trip before heading back home to the States. In a way I sympathised with him, understanding the feeling of having a love that you knew you couldn’t have, but on the other hand it was heart wrenching to hear. I hid my pain from him, not wanting him to know that he was the cause of such great pain for me. I was there for him as his friend and it gave me hope that we could once again become close. The second part of the blow was to come shortly after. His girl had flown home before it had a chance to really go anywhere, but there was always another girl in the wings, eagerly waiting to get hold of him. She was gorgeous, young and petit, everything I wasn’t. She too was a virgin and so they shared the common feelings of trepidation about doing it for the first time. I had to be there for him. I was his friend. I had to encourage him to go for it, knowing it was what he should do. But inside, a piece of me was ...
    breaking apart. Any hope that I had was going to be gone soon. She would get what I’d secretly wanted to share with him. The special moment that I had not been able to have in my own life, with my first time being beyond horrendous, was going to be taken from his by someone else. I knew she’d fall for him and chances are he would fall for her. He would be happy and as his friend I should be happy about that. I’ve distanced myself from him now. Changing my shifts and keeping out of the way when I know he’s around. It pains me to do it, but the pain of that is less than the pain of seeing him around flirting with other people. I didn’t mean to fall in love and ruin our friendship. I was hoping I could be stronger and let go of those feelings to save the friendship. Who knows? Maybe one day we could be friends again, or maybe that’s the foolish sort of hopes that got me in trouble the first time. Luke once told me that we can’t control our feelings and that we don’t choose who we fall in love with. He was right of course. I couldn’t fight the feelings of loving him, any more than I could stop things fading with Chris at home. Luke couldn’t see how much I was hurting because I shielded him from it to protect his feelings. I know every story has more than one side to it. Luke thinks he’s let me down and hates that I’ve got hurt, but I don’t blame him. He did nothing wrong and if I had been able to control my emotions and had seen what was happening sooner, then maybe I could’ve ...