1. Treat The Queen Like A Whore - Chapter 1


    Date: 11/4/2017, Categories: Novels, Author: the_lady_of_shalott, Rating: 4, Source: LushStories

    overcome my anxiety. Crowds of people scare me, large parties overwhelm my senses. If I really concentrate I can handle my share of public speaking but I'd be shaking like a leaf after that. The mass love and admiration held no appeal to me and would push me way out of my comfort zone. Perhaps that attitude may come across as fake modesty but that was how I felt. I'd be more than happy to have just a few friends who were kindred spirits and whom I could talk about anything with. He was changing his girlfriend every week, convinced he could find “someone of better quality”. As corny as it sound all I wanted was just one woman in whose eyes to find all the answers. Silly, right? Dominic would laugh heartily at such statements of mine, that was part of his mind games. Above all, if it were up to me, I'd never even try to compete with my miracle of a brother. I'd be pleased to stay in his shadow, dedicate to my own life, hobbies and passions. I was willing to let him be the king of the world and not question his dominance. Maybe that was what drove him wild. Dominic needed to conquer and if the object of his desires surrendered too easily it was way too easy victory for him. Therefore just the silent acceptance of his younger brother wouldn't do. It all started with simple provocations, open doubt in my masculinity, my battle spirit and abilities in general. I may be an introvert but I am not a pushover so I always fell for his traps. The first time when I couldn't hold back any ...
    longer and darted at him ready for a fight Dominic smiled at me in such an openly sadistic manner that my blood chilled. All of my fury was gone and I came to my senses just when I felt his blow on my chin, how my jaw stung. After it was over and both of us were punished he would not stop smiling in the same way. It was a rather bloody fight and each one of us got their share of bruises. And still that asshole was smiling as if he had won a priza! His deep blue eyes always look so much darker when he is gloating, so convinced that he will always be better and stronger. I couldn't just stand in the corner anymore. Only later in life I realized how I had been his puppet all my life. Each time I responded to his challenge, when I changed my plans just to show him I could bite back, I was actually obeying. Even when I felt most proud with myself for not putting up with his bad attitude all that I accomplished was to give him pleasure. I joined the heavy athletics team because Dominic said I was too weak and girly for that and I couldn't compare with real men. I followed at every risk activity he was suggesting just so that I would not give him an occasion to call me sissy. Extreme sports, climbing, wild parties, pranks. I'd get in trouble and almost ruin myself with the desperate need to catch up with Dominic. To be perfectly fair I can't say that this experience and all of his challenges were entirely negative to my upbringing. That period at the sports helped me achieve higher ...
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