1. Pure Obsession (Finn) - Chapter Three


    Date: 11/1/2017, Categories: Reluctance, Author: SITTING, Rating: 23, Source: LushStories

    trying to regulate my breathing as I watched the steam billow out of mouth. I needed to stop smoking. There was a little family walking down the street, a short distance away from me. Two adults, one kid. The parents each held one of the child’s hands and I could hear her laughing. It was a sweet, innocent sound. I never remembered feeling that way myself. So carefree. Maybe I was born different. I turned and a sign in the window of a shop caught my eye. TO LET/MAY SELL. GROUND FLOOR & PART BASEMENT. CALL 07568249538 FOR ALL ENQUIRIES. I looked up at the gigantic, Victorian building. It was very smart, with huge windows and carved stonework. The first floor upwards had been converted into offices and apartments but everything below was in need of repair. It was sad in a way. Through the window I could see a vacant room, a huge dusty space which had been abandoned halfway through a renovation. There were pots of paint lying on their sides, a stepladder leaning against the wall, an old sink in the middle of the room. Sometimes things just needed to be taken care of. If someone came along and bought it, they could fit it out and make something amazing but if no one cared, it’d just stay there and get older and more rotten with every passing day. It needed saving. Just like people needed saving. And yet, if you didn’t try saving yourself, why should anyone else care? Nobody cared about anyone. You had to make people care about you, make them value you. I dug my hands in my ...
    pockets and headed back home. *** I found it hard to sleep. My mind refused to shut down, alive and bright with memories and ideas. In some ways, I’d feared that once I’d met Alessandra, the obsession would fade. I’d see she was just a normal girl and I wouldn’t be so crazy about it all. But it had got worse. Seeing her, touching her, talking to her, it had confirmed everything. She wasn’t the kind of girl you could just meet at a party. She was something else entirely. I wanted to be with her again and again, feel her body against mine, hear her gasps in my ear. I needed to get rid of Daniel. Daniel was… public enemy number one. I really didn’t like him, not just because he was her boyfriend, but also because he was so useless. I started watching him, trying to figure out his routine, trying to find some way to make his world come crashing down. He deserved it. He needed a wake-up call, to come back down to earth, to stop being such a waste of space. I didn’t feel bad about it, not for one second. He seemed to subsist on drugs alone; I never saw him eat. Over time he got worse, going into the toilets to get his fix every couple of hours and partying almost every single night of the week. At night, he smoked weed and drank to come down and the next day he’d do it all over again. It was fascinating to watch, despite how destructive it all was. I was amazed at how he could keep up his lifestyle and still be able to dance all his shows. For a guy like him, I knew the end was coming ...
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