1. Emily The Girl I Didn’t Understand


    Date: 8/13/2017, Categories: Dark Fantasy, Male / Female Teens, Male/Female, Prostitution, Young, Author: lekkerrust12, Rating: 90.7, Source: sexstories.com

    me of what my step dad had done to me. The good news is I really like my mom’s boyfriend and his son is kind of cute. I am hopeful for once. 8/22 – Austin is such a hottie! I get so nervous around him that I end up being such a terrible bitch to him. 8/25 – As much as I struggle against it I find myself slipping into my old habits. I find myself flirting with my mom’s boyfriend in order to get things I want. He is a nice guy and I think he feels guilty about what happened to me so he gives me whatever I want. I don’t know why I can’t stop taking advantage of him. 8/31 – My mom sat me down and had a talk with me today. She told me she wanted to tell Austin about my past so he would understand me better. I don’t want him to know that about me. I don’t want every time he sees me to think of that. I don’t want him to feel sorry for me. Sometimes I think I want him to hate me. I begged and pleaded with her not to tell him. She told me if I didn’t want her to have a talk with him I had to make an effort to not be such a bitch towards him. I told her I would do my best even though I knew it was unlikely I could keep myself from doing it. 9/4 – A boy at school asked me out and obviously wants to have sex with me. I can’t bring myself to date yet. In theory I like the idea of getting fucked again, but I am just not ready yet. Still it is nice to be at a new school where everybody doesn’t judge me or see me as some sort of victim. I find my crush on Austin to be almost unbearable. I ...
    find myself doing things just to piss him off and even to hurt him. When I masturbate I often think of him and I feel so guilty afterwards. 9/20 – I know I haven’t written in awhile, but yesterday I did something so awful I felt like I had to get it out. I took Austin’s tooth brush and masturbated myself with it until I came. It felt so good and I came so hard. Then I put it back without washing it off. I watched him brush his teeth with it the next morning and it made me so wet. I want him so bad. I am so sick. 10/01 – Austin has a date with the skankiest girl at school this weekend. I am so jealous, angry and confused. He is going to fuck her and I can’t stand it. I want him to fuck me, but I am so awful what kind of normal person would want me? The things that get me off are so sick and depraved. 10/02 – Well I did something bad again. I killed Austin’s date by making sure I got the car. Worse yet I couldn’t resist the temptation of gloating and rubbing it in his face. I don’t know what I am thinking. We live in the same house, he thinks I am a bitch and truthfully if I ever let him see the real me he would run away screaming as the real me is so much more worse than the bitch I pretend to be. I closed her journal after I read the last entry and put it away. Needless to say I was shocked and my emotions were jumbled. I had masturbated on her bed to her panties and I felt overwhelmed with guilt. I ran to the toilet and threw up. I felt so sorry for her and I didn’t want her ...